DOC-U-MENTING

WAKE

Wake and BE.

So, we don't look perfect when we wake up,
that's obvious and understandable.
But whoever said it wasn't good enough?

Learning to embrace all aspects of myself...
as all layers of myself transform and grow.
I'm falling back together, pieces and all.



"I think I'm always going through a transformation.
I think now that I'm older I'm more aware of the things
that make me feel more complete as a person. I'm
trying to concentrate on those things as opposed to things
that make me feel empty or not as complete, or that
don't represent who I am." -Mary-Kate

It's strange, the places you'll find muses,
in annoying trendy magazines and in frail frames
younger than your own.
;mj

P.S. Run with your inspirations.

THEME: SELF DIRECTION

Moving on from the theme of Artistic Direction, that took me way too long to work on,
I'm starting on the next theme of Self Direction. I've decided to let the themes dictate
themselves to me, on how long they should last, or even if they should end at all.
I'm mostly opting to consider each theme as an invitation to additional discovery,
without limiting myself in any other areas or themes.

Self Direction is a huge part of our lives, and that pesky quarter-life crisis.
We need to figure ourselves out and where the heck we're going.

Where are we going?
Who are we becoming?
What do we want?



I have about a million and one goals. Some I need to complete by today, some in
a span of a few years. Nonetheless, it's important to have goals and write them down.
It makes me feel connected with the possibility of achieving them. It can be
overwhelming to think so far into the future, but I know that in a matter of a
few months I will be turning 24. This scares me because I have so much I want to do
before leaving the 25 mark. I've got two years. two months, and two days till I'll be 26.
I have much I want to accomplish and experience, and so much more to still figure out!

So I've started small with a few goals. Simple ones, and big ones. Of course there are
many more than I made room for, but these goals will make themselves known to me
as the days pass by. It doesn't hurt to be in tune with them though.



I believe it's incredibly important to stay positive and believe in yourself in the ways
that you want to see yourself. Say, you want to be a certain kind of person...
just believing that you already are that kind of person makes it that much more
real and attainable. There are plenty of inspirations and muses that show up
along our journeys, it's up to us to dissect them and sprout from them.

Grow Love, Sprout Babycakes


Be back with more soon,
xxo; Mae Jane

P.S. Small update located at TLF.

RAIN DROPS

    Trying to get back on track is quite the commitment. I'm finding myself wanting to be young and wild, just sipping and laughing the night away with friends. I find another side of myself trying to break through, trying to control, organize, plan, create, accomplish, and pile on more. It's a contradictory process of growing. Some things are changing in my life and right now my priorities are a bit arranged. However, art is still in my top three. My education at the local college has been put on hold again, as I feel stifled and squashed and completely misunderstood by that school. You know, the one that was never one of your choices, but you went to anyway because it was convenient, close, and cheaper? It's scary when you realize you may have been doing everything opposite to your true real wants, that reside so deep inside of you that it's no wonder you would constantly overlook them (for others). Right now in my life I need to be concentrating on working, saving money that is, becoming financially secure as an independent woman. Independence is the key word here. I need to learn to understand my true nature and cultivate that path of success and dreams I continuously drool over. And I shall. It just may take me a while.
    This year went by incredibly fast, I can't believe Halloween is already gone. People have already bought Christmas presents and planning New Year's resolutions. Me? I'm just trying to make sense of it all before I become another victim of society.

;mj